EPIPHANY 1 - “Love”
Stay with me here, because this may get twisted and confusing at some point, that point may even be the first sentence (You never know, I’m just that talented.) So, although I am probably not the only person to bitch and moan about relationships in general. Id like to put this into words (stemming from Sara Bareilles - Love song)
“I learned the hard way, that they all say, things you want to hear”
- Like: Ive never felt this way/You mean more to me than anyone - basically, in the begining you can rely on words and passion alone - but when that fades what are you going to have to fall back on.
“Your twisted words, your help just hurts. You are not what I thought you were”
.. When someone realises that this isnt the person they tricked themselves into believing you were
“Convinced me to please you, made me think that I need this too”
.. or the person you tricked yourself into being for them.
“if your heart is nowhere in it, I dont want it for a minute”
.. and when you find out theres nothing there, there never was anything bar the initial intensity and lust what are you truly left with? The fact that maybe you were just afraid of being alone. Its a shame there are too many people in this world who are happy to ignore reality.
I know, I really should stop getting all D&M on your asses after you come on here to read me being abusive (not being all thoughtful and such bulllshit.)
Having said that. I dont want to come off like an icey souled bitch. I think the fact that its almost a social nescesity to find one person in the entire world who can make you feel perfect (without even having to say those words) is beyond anything I can even begin to put into words. Its not lust when someone knows you so well they can predict the way you will act, or when they can make you smile without even aiming to. A person who makes you realise that not everything is too good to be true, thats the kind of person who lasts, I guess (I assume at best) that is where love is found.
Rage is more your forte.
This sounds depressive, yuk.
Hahaha I did not mean to depress you, just letting my fingers type without thinking how it comes across.
To me it just sounds truthful. But you know me I can write about depression shit, or a can write in “rage”… I dont think I have tried enlightening and fufilling.
Btw. Did you get your tattoo?? I did not. I was too poor. Im 18 in 2 or 3 weeks tho.
No I havent yet, but thanks for reminding me. I think ill get it tomorrow. Enjoy the blur that is being 18.